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I never thought that I could write something like this down. Because I am not the kind of girl I should be at my age. While all of my friends go clubbing and drinking, I prefer staying at home with no care to myself. I am not a fashion girl and I don't look at guys and think "oh my god he is so hot!". No, I take everything how it is. I dont think about our world or what I could have done different and what would be now. I am a smoker and I like smoking, there are no thoughts about how bad it is for me. I don't fight for someone who made me sad one time and I take me out of trouble every time. Well I could say that I don't really live. I exist, but not living, and it is ok for me. And I neither got any passion for sport or art, I like being. just being.. like staying at home or staying in my room for a whole weekend. It doesn't make me sad, it fills me with feelings. And this time is everything for me. but I always ask myself; what goals do I got in my life?